Living with the longterm effects of gaslighting.

Gaslighting, being gaslit, I'm sure we've all heard about it in some shape or form by now. According to the Oxford dictionary it is defined as "to manipulate (a person) by psychological means into questioning his or her own sanity." In layman's terms, basically Inception-ing (referring to the 2010 smash hit starring Leonardo DiCaprio) someone…

This post is totally not sarcastic at all…

ADHD is just so fun and quirky! I wish I could make those words wriggle and dance to really emphasize how enthusiastic I am. There are so many things about ADHD that are definitely silly and not at all annoying or debilitating. Let's talk about some examples, shall we? I wake up pretty much every…

Managing trauma responses in times of joy.

As you've probably already gathered, I have been through a lot in my three decades of life. A number of these events have left me with permanent scars, both physically and emotionally. These emotional scars come with what we in the business like to call "triggers." In layman's terms, a "trigger" is something either conscious…

An indifference towards my own sustained existence.

"What would you like to read about on my blog?" I asked my best friend, Gadget, one evening. Gadget and I have been friends since we started college together, thirteen years ago. It was completely my choice to become friends. Gadget can be both very stubborn and very shy, which doesn't always make the greatest…

What if…I shouldn’t be thinking about what ifs?

Having a MI and being self aware about that MI seems to make it that much more complicated. Frequently when I'm dealing with a particularly difficult episode, there will be two voices in my head arguing with each other about something. Usually in direct contrast of each other. But nothing is ever that black and…